Pros & Cons

Why does my current weight feel like too much?

Because I'm fat and jell-o like

My back bulges, my thighs aren't good shape anymore

My arms are enormous and soft, like the michelin man

My face is so round

The only thing that is right is that my clothes go on.

Because I want to be fragile

Weight range I could agree to. 125-135

Pros and cons of losing weight

Pros

Look better

Feel better

Fit all my clothes

Can be in photos

Don't have to stress over how I look

Don't want to cry when I look in the mirror

More active

Compliments are nice

IRONMAN training?

Brett thinks I'm more attractive

Look better in a spandex tri suit

Not the 'fat girl' on the team

Faster

My rings fit better

The scale doesn't confuse Eli and I

I can borrow clothes from friends

My mom even compliments me

No overheating

Meal planning efficiency

Saves money

Dont look like a slob with no self control

Going clothes shopping isn't terrifying

No love handles

Uh Cheekbones

Collarbones for days

You are what you eat

Eli can carry me without straining

Feel clean

No fat rolls when I sit

I feel high when the weight drops on the scale

Cons

Obsess over food

Can't eat out with friends/or it takes forever to choose food

Stress Eli out

Miserable at plateaus 

Lying to Eli about what I eat

My stupid rib becomes more obvious

Apparently people feel entitled to comment at family gatherings

Hungry

Cold. So cold.

Dizzy

More time at the gym

Dumb ridges in my nails

Hair kind of falls out

Cons of me being myself

Can't go to the grocery store like a goddamn adult

So much of this started with my ex. He gave me my first rubber band. Just snap yourself when you're hungry.

 Xxblake