Happy Cinco de Mayo!

Or Cinco de Drinko... ;)

As with any holiday that surrounds food (all of them) this is an especially difficult day. But to all you who do consume adult beverages, just remember that for every serving of chips and salsa you don't have, it's another drink you do have. And I'd much rather be drunk personally. I'm off to do a shitton of homework, I have a massive lab report due on monday. But have a great weekend lovelies!!!


Be safe and think skinny!!!!

Busy busy...

School is absolutely killer, but the good news is I'm running more, faster, and for longer. I got a promotion that will make me editor-in-chief of the yearbook next year. It will also keep me more busy than is healthy. Which is perfect. 

I promise I haven't forgotten about blogger. I think about blogging every day. I just struggle to make time when I know Eli will be looking over my shoulder. I don't have a desk or anything. I do all my homework at the kitchen table. Which is fine, but it doesn't give me any privacy for anything like this. I am looking at apps for my ipad, or some sort of integration with safari or mail so that I can post without getting on the website... Because that is what Eli recognizes. Seeing me type a whole bunch is nothing special. It's just where I type it.

But I have a couple of ideas. =]

So we'll see.

soon.

xxxblakexxx

Thinspo with Pets

I was feeling inspired with the coming puppy and all... So here is some thinspiration for everyone =]

xxxblakexxx

PUPPY!!!

I get to pick him up monday from the airport!!!

His name is Wi-Fi
and he is the most precious thing ever!!!

 He is a purebred italian greyhound, and he is going to keep me sane. I am so in love with him already! And plus, the breed can run up to 25mph when they are full grown ;)

I'm happy right now. I'm also floaty. I haven't eaten at all today, but I'm drinking with some friends tonight so I'm sure it'll make up for it. =[

I start training for a half marathon on monday, it's a class on campus, so I'll be very motivated to keep up with it. As I'm paying for it... I also meet Eli's Sister in Law this coming weekend, and she's a doctor, and a recovered anorexic. So I'm actually fairly nervous about meeting her. I hear we're a lot alike. Hah.  I just hope she doesn't see anything in me that reminds her of herself. Because I don't want to raise any eyebrows.

We'll see. Meanwhile, I'll focus on the puppy!!!!!!!!!!

xxxblakexxx

I MISSED YOU ALL!!!

LOVELIES!

Life has been SO crazy! I am now living full time with Eli and his roomie.
I am getting an Italian Greyhound Puppy soon!
My grades are good!
And I am fat.
Really.... I don't even know how much I weigh.. I just know that my normal pants don't fit quite right anymore....

However, I am taking a half marathon training class with Eli this coming term (it's spring break now) and I should drop some weight.

I've started tanning, which is hell weird (by this I mean I went tanning, once, day before yesterday). I will be darker though, and it forces me to stand naked in a booth. I hate being naked. So it's fabulous motivation to get back on the skinny train. I don't know what all happened... I think between classes, and moving, and life. My ultimate happiness kind of fell by the wayside. But not anymore. =] Thank god.

I'm going to get on top of this. I'm going to be happy.

I know this is a shit post. But they'll all start getting better. My posts always get better once I'm back in the groove. I decided I should stop waiting for something epic to write, and just write...

Love you all.

Can't wait to hear from you!

xxxblakexxx
yesterday, I said tomorrow. In case tomorrow never comes, I'm starting today.

Blog Makeover!

Thoughts? Opinions? Love it or Hate it, let me know!

I like the fact that it changed what the tab said up top, it makes it nicer if someone glances at my computer and they don't see "Ana's Arm's" They instead see Protection In...  =]

I'm all floaty, I haven't eaten today. It feels SO good.

Eli is going to start exercising with me in the mornings... I've been staying with him at his place the past few days and I thought it would make it harder to avoid food. I'm around a whole lot more of it, but the guys(Eli and his Roommate) are really so happy about me cooking for them that they hardly notice, so I can't complain any.

I'm not really living at Kappa Delta anymore, and I can't complain any about that either. I was having to sleep in front of an open window (they can't be closed due to ventilation issues) and I was beginning to get really sick. Luckily I avoided the worst of it by staying at Eli's one night and then driving to my parents place the next. But I refuse to not protect myself anymore. So I'm not sleeping at K∆ which means it hardly feels like I live there most of the time.

Anyway, back to the good stuff.... Eli and I will be exercising! He's going to get up with me in the mornings to workout, we'll do the Ninety-Nine (99 jumping jacks, 99 crunches, 99 second wall sit, 99 leg lifts, 9 pushups, then 88 & 8, then 77 & 7, etc... All the way down to what is normally an eleven minute run instead of 11 of each, but for us will be about 2.5 miles, so around 20 minutes) I'm really excited about it!!!

Something I'm noticing about going back and forth between homes... Everyone assumes you already ate, and if they don't, you just tell them you did. No more expectations. It's phenomenal...

I'm not going to let my weight tip 140 ever again. I'm getting myself back under control. Thank goodness.

till later, but soon.
xxxblakexxx

Stay Strong, Think Thin, Live Ana

& Remember

Yesterday, You said Tomorrow

Just Do It.

See you in One Pound.

Workin' it out.

I don't even feel like I did anything. I did burn about 350 calories though. Not bad for 30 minutes. Not great either.

Things have changed so much, I thought I was busy before... I guess it's just more manageable now. My weight has skyrocketed... It's still under 140 but i'm so embarrassed of myself. I can't even tell you all. But I will once it's gone..

I had to put down both my dogs a week ago last thursday. And I'm still emotionally trying to recover.

I made some New Years Resolutions though!
I mean, a while ago, but still.

1) Lose 15 or more pounds. SW 135.0
2) Be nice to someone that I do not like every. single. day. Even if it means going out of my way for it. (I do not like this one...)
3) Get a little Italian Greyhound Puppy!!!
4) Find an apartment with Chiara

There are more and I'll update them once I find my complete list.

Things aren't good. but they will be better. One step and calorie at a time.

xxxblakexxx

Back at Uni...

Which generally makes life easier. But this time I feel like I've only been eating shit food. It's not an excuse that I've been busy, it shouldn't matter at all. That should make it easier. I've been exercising so much though, something I'm actually really proud of. It's been at least twice a day for the past couple of days. I'm decently on top of my homework.

But not of my emotions. I should be shrinking. This all shouldn't be that hard. I know that after this week it won't be, and I'm looking forward to it. I'm going to start working my way back down the eating train...

800 cal per day goal. Then 700.. 650 by the end of next week.

I have gymnastics class monday and wednesday at 11AM with Chiara, and we are doing the Insanity program with my old roommate.

I'm running with Eli too. So even though I'm eating like crap. I'm about even at the end of the day. Which is pretty cool for minimal effort..
I can feel myself slipping though. In a good way, well, not for people who care about me. But for me, and Chiara, and Darcy ( WHO IS COMING BACK OHMYGOD). This is a very good thing.

 xxxblakexxx

Happy New Year!

It will be lovely lovelies.

We have the potential to make things happen.

We have the power to make things happen.

Do we have the will?

I'll post soon!

I love you all. You keep me strong. I survived the holidays and left it at 133 pounds. Not my low weight. But lower than it was finals week. Yeah, I lost weight, over christmas holiday. Home with my family.

FUCK. YES.

How was everyone's holiday season?

What were your new years resolutions? Tell me yours I'll tell you mine. ;)

xxxblakexxx

Merry Christmas!

Through all the holiday eating I've had to do, the scale blessed me with 134.5 today. No where near where I want to be. But there is the potential for it to be so much worse. Today/Tomorrow is christmas, so I won't get to go for a jog like I'd like. But I'll get to crack back down on monday. I've done a decent amount of exercising, and it is superbly easy to get away with just one meal a day at my parents house. It'll be nice going back to uni the same weight (thinner?) as before. Then I won't have any more work than I have to...

For everyone trying to survive the holidays with family and friends, I wish you well. Drink lots of water. But also try and enjoy yourself. Holidays are the most terrifying days to me, so my focus tomorrow is to just try and have fun, avoid food, but have fun most importantly. 

This day comes once a year and no matter what I'd like to think, it isn't worth an argument with anyone about what I'm eating.                                                 

 I hope you all are doing well, I'll get back on the blogging horse soon, I promise.

xxxblakexxx

stay strong, think thin. you can do this.


Merry Christmas to All, and to All a Good Night!