Jun 2, 2011

I  never thought I’d see this number on the scale again. It seems too good to be true. But now that I know it is here. I just want to get into the 130s before I let go of the fast/eat anything. I just want to see the number. It’s been my landmark for a really long time. And if I pass it a bit, I’ll feel better about my dads birthday dinner.

This could really be it. I could be tipping over that plateau. Finally.

But its been a long day, and my weight is up a pound  since I woke up, given, I had more broth so I could be retaining water. But I really hope it’ll be gone tomorrow.  

I need to be successful. 

I’m thinking I’m going to eat tomorrow. Only fruits and vegetables. That way my body will be okay processing things for my dads birthday on sunday.

I don’t know.

I just want to eat. 

It’s been four days. That should be enough right?

Ana is telling me it isn’t and I don’t know what to do, I don’t even think I’m hungry. I just want to feel something. Anything other than liquid in my stomach.

What do I do?

I just want to be thin....


1 comment:

  1. Four days is more than long enough. You can probably make it longer, but why risk passing out and raising suspicion? You could introduce smoothies back into your diet, and then fruits and vegetables, so you feel like you're coming off it slower. I don't know. I hope you're feeling better :)