I emailed my doctor today.
I thought I could do it without the adderall, I thought I could handle school, life, and everything else.
But I can't, well. I can. But I can't get skinny doing it too.
This way I can. This is the focus that I need. No more struggling to do an assignment I can do on adderall in 2 hours, what would normally take me 8...
I can't wait for that fix. I hate myself a little bit for this. I worked so hard to stop this. To get away from this and feel like myself again. But it isn't actually worth it to me anymore.